We always seem to be negotiating with ourselves about self-inflicted rules and boundaries and schedules. Sure some are real and practical like getting to employed work on time for our illusory security however the rest of the time is ours to choose with what we wish.
Family takes a certain second or perhaps first but after that we get to choose what is most important depending on our dreams, visions and purpose that we have acknowledged in our life. Time, although also illusory, can expand or contract depending on our focus and depth of our participation and action. As we decide, time allows. But we ask ourselves, am I ready?; for this vision and purpose. We do not realise that we are bargaining with an uncertain self and that self will always win. I asked that question of my art coach when I was considering her business art course and she said, " If not now, when?" That did it for me. My uncertain self had no recourse since the passion to proceed with my art future was non-negotiable however hard my limited self tries to undermine and question my desires.
"If not NOW, WHEN?" Spiritually and cosmically speaking, there is no other time but NOW so why not start. Start that heartfelt project you have been putting off for ..how long? Even one small step or task each day will get you closer and closer and then it is done. So much fulfilment comes and satisfaction and joy with the process and the end product. Give that to yourself and you will have more of your enjoyable self to share with those you love and important in your life.
I finished that business course and although it opened up so many more projects and ideas, the question still comes, if not NOW, WHEN?"